Snap Shots

I was sitting on the couch the other night and in conversation Husband made a comment about me having a boy friend all throughout highschool. I told him that wasn't true, it wasn't until after I had turned 17. But to be honest, I don't exactly remember. I might've been 16, I really don't know.

It's not that it mattered all that much but today I was thinking, What I had always catagorized as the best time of my life (being 16/17, when love and passion were new and I was deciding on who I would become). But now those times are fading. I find myself taking new mental snap shots that are remembered with a more vivid lens. This lens is Choice. This lens is Perspective.

The snap shots are filled with spending quality time with my family, camping and picnics. They are filled with summer nights spent with Husband, relaxing and enjoying life. They are even filled with hard moments, that are nonetheless, still life-changing and perspective altering. Like finding out I have PCOS and Husband telling me to simply look in the mirrow when I'm scared, because I was choosen to exist despite this condition my parents faced and that we now face.

My new snap shots are ones I choose now, not ones that happened just because they were firsts. Whether it's visiting our best friends on the day they buy their first home, or when we finally make the call to see a specialist to start a family, I will continue to choose these snap shot moments, because good or bad, they tell our story.